ishynya

hey! hope you’re all having a great day :3 i was thinking a bit about my childhood, in case you’re interested. i moved several times, but before the first move, i felt like a totally different person. i was super brave and sporty. climbing trees, riding my bike, doing tricks on the pull-up bar — i even defended other kids from bullies. but here’s the interesting part: despite all that, i was a straight-A student and never broke rules at school — i didn’t even run in the hallways. i always felt like i had to do the right thing, even if no one was watching. my parents told me something really important a long time ago: “trust is lost only once.” that means if you betray someone, they’ll never fully trust you again and will always doubt your words and actions. that phrase means a lot to me. also, growing up, we barely had money. we ate simple food, and even when we had more, i understood its value and was careful. for example, as a kid, i didn’t want a bunch of cheap toys — i preferred one good quality thing a year. i also saved my pocket money for bigger things. because of that, i’m pretty good with money now, but at the same time, i’m scared to spend on small pleasures… #legs #sneakers #alt #altgirl #egirl #goth #petite #slender #skinny #small

Published: June 23rd 2025, 2:34:16 pm

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hey! hope you’re all having a great day :3 i was thinking a bit about my childhood, in case you’re interested. i moved several times, but before the first move, i felt like a totally different person. i was super brave and sporty. climbing trees, riding my bike, doing tricks on the pull-up bar — i even defended other kids from bullies. but here’s the interesting part: despite all that, i was a straight-A student and never broke rules at school — i didn’t even run in the hallways. i always felt like i had to do the right thing, even if no one was watching. my parents told me something really important a long time ago: “trust is lost only once.” that means if you betray someone, they’ll never fully trust you again and will always doubt your words and actions. that phrase means a lot to me. also, growing up, we barely had money. we ate simple food, and even when we had more, i understood its value and was careful. for example, as a kid, i didn’t want a bunch of cheap toys — i preferred one good quality thing a year. i also saved my pocket money for bigger things. because of that, i’m pretty good with money now, but at the same time, i’m scared to spend on small pleasures… #legs #sneakers #alt #altgirl #egirl #goth #petite #slender #skinny #small

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Today, I was reminiscing about my childhood. I don’t remember what I’ve already shared and what I haven’t.

I want to tell you about my mom.

My mom was and still is a wonderful and very kind person.

Let’s start with the fact that for as long as I can remember, she has been into fitness. But she is very shy, so for most of my life, she either worked out at home or in places where there were no people. One of my warmest memories is from winter when she would put me on a sled and run with me as if I were a weight, always in empty places where no one was around. And when we got close to home, she would ask me to get off because she was too shy to be seen by people. It’s funny because this happened even when there was almost no snow, and the sled was mostly sliding on asphalt. Unfortunately, my sled was stolen later.

Another memory is of my mom telling my teachers at school that I wouldn’t be coming that day, and in secret from my dad, we would go on a picnic in the forest by the lake. We grilled sausages and bread and ate vegetables. It felt incredibly special to enjoy all of that while other kids were sitting in school. I think my dad would have been very unhappy if he knew how we were skipping school.

And once, when we were walking home, a thunderstorm started, and we decided to take our time and walk barefoot through the puddles. We came home happy and soaked. It was a warm summer day, so there was no fear of catching a cold. And back then, no one in our family had mobile phones, so there was no need to worry about them getting damaged in the water.

Today, I was reminiscing about my childhood. I don’t remember what I’ve already shared and what I haven’t. I want to tell you about my mom. My mom was and still is a wonderful and very kind person. Let’s start with the fact that for as long as I can remember, she has been into fitness. But she is very shy, so for most of my life, she either worked out at home or in places where there were no people. One of my warmest memories is from winter when she would put me on a sled and run with me as if I were a weight, always in empty places where no one was around. And when we got close to home, she would ask me to get off because she was too shy to be seen by people. It’s funny because this happened even when there was almost no snow, and the sled was mostly sliding on asphalt. Unfortunately, my sled was stolen later. Another memory is of my mom telling my teachers at school that I wouldn’t be coming that day, and in secret from my dad, we would go on a picnic in the forest by the lake. We grilled sausages and bread and ate vegetables. It felt incredibly special to enjoy all of that while other kids were sitting in school. I think my dad would have been very unhappy if he knew how we were skipping school. And once, when we were walking home, a thunderstorm started, and we decided to take our time and walk barefoot through the puddles. We came home happy and soaked. It was a warm summer day, so there was no fear of catching a cold. And back then, no one in our family had mobile phones, so there was no need to worry about them getting damaged in the water.

When I was a young teenager and the girls in my class started getting their puberty and all the things that came with it, when they got more feminine and curvier, started wearing makeup and looking at boys I was still very child-like. My chest didn't grow like other girls' did, I wasn't interested in romance at all, and all my "masculine", nerdy interests did not help the situation as you would imagine (video games and fantasy worlds' lore were not exactly perceived as a girly thing when I was 13...)

Both boys and girls in my school pointed this out pretty straightforwardly, and even though it felt like it didn't hurt too much in that moment, for many years I've felt very insecure about my body. I was called "flat", "a boy" and even just "stupid-looking" for not having breasts and a curvy waist as a 13 year old!! Sounds incredibly absurd, but all those things got to my head... For a long time I didn't feel feminine at all, and even when my body became like that a lot later, I would hide it in baggy clothes just out of habit and fear. 

But I'm very glad that this mindset is in the past now. Thanks to wonderful people around me who helped me regain my confidence and love for myself, I feel very comfortable in my body and think that it's as beautiful as any other! Remember - beauty is a subjective concept, it is unfortunately forced to all of us by mainstream media, which is designed to influence us in negative ways. Your body is natural, and therefore is beautiful and absolutely normal! No one should ever assure you that there are any actual standards of visual beauty, because in fact everything that matters is how you feel inside it. When you feel beautiful and you know it, people will perceive you like that too! 🌸

I wanna share my confidence with you and inspire to love yourself!! And show you a piece of me for your pleasure ☺️

#cute #teen #babyface #babygirl

When I was a young teenager and the girls in my class started getting their puberty and all the things that came with it, when they got more feminine and curvier, started wearing makeup and looking at boys I was still very child-like. My chest didn't grow like other girls' did, I wasn't interested in romance at all, and all my "masculine", nerdy interests did not help the situation as you would imagine (video games and fantasy worlds' lore were not exactly perceived as a girly thing when I was 13...) Both boys and girls in my school pointed this out pretty straightforwardly, and even though it felt like it didn't hurt too much in that moment, for many years I've felt very insecure about my body. I was called "flat", "a boy" and even just "stupid-looking" for not having breasts and a curvy waist as a 13 year old!! Sounds incredibly absurd, but all those things got to my head... For a long time I didn't feel feminine at all, and even when my body became like that a lot later, I would hide it in baggy clothes just out of habit and fear. But I'm very glad that this mindset is in the past now. Thanks to wonderful people around me who helped me regain my confidence and love for myself, I feel very comfortable in my body and think that it's as beautiful as any other! Remember - beauty is a subjective concept, it is unfortunately forced to all of us by mainstream media, which is designed to influence us in negative ways. Your body is natural, and therefore is beautiful and absolutely normal! No one should ever assure you that there are any actual standards of visual beauty, because in fact everything that matters is how you feel inside it. When you feel beautiful and you know it, people will perceive you like that too! 🌸 I wanna share my confidence with you and inspire to love yourself!! And show you a piece of me for your pleasure ☺️ #cute #teen #babyface #babygirl