ishynya | something unusual happened today… i hope maybe my experience can help someone. i woke up and everything felt fine at first. but at some point — i don’t even know when exactly — something just flipped inside me. i started crying out of nowhere, shaking, couldn’t breathe properly… it felt like a full breakdown, but without a clear reason. i couldn’t even remember what i had just been doing. i couldn’t piece anything together. i just really wanted to disappear. but i knew one thing: this wasn’t mine. so i went to make breakfast — still crying and confused — then washed my face with cold water, opened the window and breathed in the fresh air, tapped my face and body gently… and slowly, i started to come back to myself. breathing got easier. the tears slowed down. after i ate, i finally felt normal again, but deeply exhausted. so i let myself rest. after waking up again later, i felt much calmer. i took a shower, did a bit of drawing, and now i’m planning to go for a walk. people sometimes ask me what happened. but usually, i don’t have a clear answer. it’s not one single thing — it’s a mix of many small things building up. and sometimes it all spills out as a low mood... or like today, in a sudden, strange breakdown. | Fansly