thecurvyprince

I know I don't post much about my personal life here, becaus..

Also I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet on here! I’ve been dealing with a lot especially this last month, my grandma ended up passing away the day before thanksgiving. So it’s been a little hard and weird for me since I haven’t dealt with a family death like this before, but I’m doing okay right now. I’m working on it and doing my best, so please be patient with me if I’m slow to reply/post! I’m hoping December treats me better and I’m going to do my best to work hard <3

hi guys! I want to apologize for not posting anything for so long and for skipping Christmas. these past few months have been tough for mе. I’ve been dealing with burnout and feeling completely drained. always pushing myself to be perfect and setting unrealistic expectations left me with no energy or inspiration. I’ve always tried to make the holiday season special for you with cosplay, decorations, and cozy shoots. but I couldn’t bring all my ideas for Halloween to life and decided to take a break over Christmas to recharge a little. In December, I was trying to recover, but I ended up procrastinating a lot, waking up feeling guilty for not doing anything, and hating myself for it. somewhere along the way, I also lost the sense of purpose in what I do, I couldn’t see why I was creating or who I was doing it for anymore. even the joy I used to feel from working was gone. I’ve realized now that it’s important to give myself the time and space to rest and stop demanding the impossible from myself. I’m slowly getting back on track, doing what I can for now, but I still need a bit more time to fully recover. thank you so much for your patience and support, it means the world to me. I’ll do my best to bring you new content soon 💘

Update hiii After a few weeks of trying to get my brain to stop thinking the worst about everything I’m starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel I’m really sorry for not posting like I said I would, holiday times bring back a lot of hard memories for people to deal with me included and I think they hit me harder than I thought this year. I usually fall back into depression around Christmas but I’m hoping that cleaning my place, and working on content will help keep it away I didn’t end up making content with that girl and every guy I talk to about making content sounds like a kid going to the candy shop for the first time “idk if that makes sense” Like I’ll match with guys on dating sites and they wanna know if I wanna see photos of their dick, what my kinks are, and those conversations are more of a turn off for me now because I just wanna have a normal conversation getting to know someone Just because I make porn doesn’t mean I breath eat sleep porn making :) it’s not the only thing I wanna talk about and when I’m getting to know someone I wanna know them not their dick But I’ve had no luck where I live meeting up with people and the thought of trying to is starting to give me anxiety cause something always goes wrong Right now I’m really excited for new world. When I first started posting I was so excited to share everything with you guys I think deep down I thought sharing everything about myself would attract someone to me so I wouldn’t be alone but I guess that plan backfired hard I hope I’m excited to make content and stuff but right now it’s hard for my brain to feel confident when I’m always alone and that’s something I can’t change or at least don’t have energy to keep trying to right now The things that help me feel better each day is hearing my friends voices online when we play that makes me feel surrounded by people, I love it when we’re having fun cause I’m done with stress and angry people It cut off the rest of my message but I just wanted you to know I hope you’re doi