***So..*** I have to share I got some bad news regarding my..
Published: July 22nd 2023, 12:45:46 am
***So..***
I have to share I got some bad news regarding my health I received yesterday.
To not go in **full** detail I received the outcome of the Ultrasound/Echo and also have issues with my Liver and kidney.
All other past mental, and current side effects I'm going through now finally have a cause, so happy with that at least.
The waitinglist is ridiculously long at the Hospital(s) currently so my next appointment will take a while, I hope this will go well.
I don't know what their next step will be, lets hope I don't have to go through surgery.
The doctor told me I need to stop smoking and completely cut alcohol out.
Trying to live a 'healthy' lifestyle but you know... I'm no vegan hippie. Just choose to ease with the bad stuff in life and eat healthy right now.
I am no quitter, or some weak chick.
I don't want sympathy from anyone, so had some doubts sharing this and show the vonerable side. But believe you guys following and supporting me deserved to know what really goes on 'behind it all' and not that I don't care. I do. To the outside world I would never show the bad stuff or ask for sympathy.
The side nobody ever sees or get to know on social media or online.
I'm an outspoken but private person when it comes to my life, believe or not.
Maybe it's the Sagittarius in me but will always be strongminded, fight and get Myself through the rough sheet in life too 💪 and been through hell and back. A lot 😉
I'm still standing, bitches.
I struggle, like many of you might do too, bc I'm human. And life's a bitch haha.... but when I do share private stuff, it says a lot.
I did noticed the coughing got worse after a day of filming SF videos. So yea smoking Isn't healthy we all know that lol..
Won't stop smoking, probably never fully quit...
(Don't tell my doc.😉) but smoking a pack a day like I did is pretty much impossible if I want to prevent organ failure at this point.
There are days I can't even function properly. Other days I am feeling okay. It fcking sucks but as we say here in Holland, *after rain comes sunshine*
*while writing this, I'm smoking a cig fml haha* 🥴
Will ofcourse keep filming, and also got SO many filmed unedited/raw videos that I still need to post so no worries!
This is just an update, seems fair to share so you all know why I can't always immediately respond 💞 stay safe guys!
*Pic #3: doc told me to preferrably not drink cafeïne either hehe... oops just bought a 6 pack* 😁
