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Hey guys! I wanted to give you a little update. You will hav..

Published: July 25th 2025, 12:52:32 pm

Hey guys! I wanted to give you a little update. You will have a new video posted later today. 🥰

But the real reason for the update is an apology. I’ve just not been feeling right for a few months and it’s really affected me and the way I work. First a little backstory: I’ve mentioned it before but I’ve suffered from chronic debilitating migraines for many years. They put me out for days at a time and mimic a stroke. They’ve put me in the hospital more times than I can count. I’ve been searching for a solution for so incredibly long. Finally my neurologist put me on Aimovig, and I’ve gone months without one. However, unknown to me until recently, the side effects include hair loss, acne, mood swings and worst of all it destroys your libido and dulls your orgasms to the point of nonexistence. I had no idea what was going on but I’ve been on the verge of retirement for weeks as the symptoms got progressively worse. I had no idea that it was the medicine doing it to me and I’ve felt like a crazy person. I’ve had absolutely no desire to have sex with anyone, not even hubby. It wasn’t fun and while I could enjoy myself in the moment I was constantly leaving me drained and unsatisfied. Then I’d wake up with acne and clumps of hair in the shower. I’ve been barely hanging on. Now if you’ll allow me to be vulnerable for a moment, I’m utterly devastated to find this out. I’ve been mostly migraine free for months but it’s been destroying my life, my job, and putting incredible strain on my marriage and family. The only positive (if you want to call it that) is that the migraines are starting to return even with the medication. So that made my decision to stop it that much easier. It will take me a few weeks to get back to normal but hopefully I’ll be able to get back to feeling like myself and start enjoying my life again.

One last thing, and I’ll go into more detail later but hubby and I have been talking about ways to get back to the more intimate and personal style we had when we started. I’ve felt that as we grow I’m moving in a more “generic” pornstar/creator direction and honestly it’s not for me. I’ve had so much fun doing collabs with other creators and will continue to do them from time to time when an opportunity arises but hubby and I really want to get back to documenting our experiences in the lifestyle and letting people into our lives. We’ve been to lifestyle parties and hooked up with bulls but the endless content grind has meant we’ve not felt like real lifestyle members for a while and we miss it so much.

This message is the first part of that. I’m not looking for pity or sympathy, I just want to get back to feeling like a human being that’s sharing her experiences and not just an object to be used or consumed.

Finally, I just want to say thank you for your patience and kindness with me. We’re coming up on hubby’s birthday and our 5 year anniversary doing this. Here’s to many more and I love you guys 🥰🥰🥰🥰