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September 11th - 30th 2019390lbs - 400lbs 🎉🐷the remainder of..
Published: April 5th 2025, 4:07:24 am
September 11th - 30th 2019
390lbs - 400lbs 🎉🐷
the remainder of the month saw me achieve my goal - truthfully, it was achieved in less than a week after the last post. the timestamp for the 400lb weigh-in is 09/13/2019.
this post marks the end of intentional gaining for the year 2019. once i saw that 400 i stepped back and was able to relax for the first time since July. my stomach being so stretched meant that i was still absolutely ravenous, and i briefly considered continuing just to see what would happen.
i was in shock that i actually weighed 400lbs… i didn’t feel that big (theme of my life tbh) and even looking back now i’m kinda just like, i KNOW the scale says 400 but i’m skinny! practically wasting away!
which can be completely chalked up to muscle mass. in the years since, i’ve grown so much lazier (yet cleaner, make it make sense) and it’s evident that 400lbs on my body today looks very different than it did back then. truthfully i love myself now more than ever, but that’s absolutely thanks to living in a better place and having significantly better mental health.
you may have noticed in these videos that i sound almost robotic and lifeless, a far cry from the Nara you’ve known and loved in recent years. this is because i was still heavily sedated with psychiatric medication. by the end of the year i finally quit everything and you’ll see a huge improvement just by the following spring.
and in typing all of this up, i’m realizing that fuck… i put on 100lbs within a year of my husband leaving me. i’m sure people thought i was emotional eating and in crisis, but that couldn’t have been further from the truth 😂
the posts get far less traumatic and much more fun from here on out; 2020 was an absolute rebirth for me, and while the years ahead weren’t perfect, they were full of so much hope and joy and i’m so excited to continue sharing them with you!