narafeedee
January 2018 - May 2018290s - 300si was heavily sedated with..
Published: March 23rd 2025, 4:07:44 am
January 2018 - May 2018
290s - 300s
i was heavily sedated with psychiatric medication (needlessly) for a condition i’ve since been undiagnosed with; i don’t remember anything from the first half of this year. in fact, the photos i’m sharing make up at least 75% of all photos taken during this time frame. for someone with terabytes worth of photos and videos before and after, it sucks to see. the reality was that i was deeply unhappy in an abusive marriage, i hated my job, and my support system crumbled around me when my husband stepped in to “care” for me and my “failing mental health”.
this season would also bring about my penultimate attempt at “doing keto” - i was so deeply afraid of my husband leaving me that i was desperate to change myself to keep him. you can see in many of these photos i was diligently documenting the shrinking of my double chin. i was so convinced that he was going to leave me for someone skinnier and prettier than me - so i starved myself in a bid to look the part instead. i was always so self-conscious of my fat face - it took a lot of work to get to where i’m at today with things.