narafeedee
January - March 2019350ishby now you may be sensing a patter..
Published: March 30th 2025, 1:13:05 pm
January - March 2019
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by now you may be sensing a pattern with this time of year for me. the vast majority of Bad Things that happen, usually happen in the first three months of the year in my life. which is kinda good cause i have the rest of the year to heal from it, kinda bad because i don’t ever have many photos. 2019 was no exception, and there was a week where my car was totaled in an accident on Monday, my grandma died on Tuesday, and i flew to Florida for the vacation that was supposed to be my honeymoon on Friday.
i was struggling badly with my mobility from the gain at the end of 2018. by the time i took a cruise in March, i was still unable to waddle more than 25ft at a time without feeling like i would collapse. this made the vacation more stressful than anything, on top of having a ton of bruises from the accident and still reeling from the loss.
i definitely stepped away from gaining to let my body catch up. i was still eating enough to maintain my size, i mean let’s be honest, at that point your gut is so stretched it’s impossible not to - but i stopped the cream and refocused on healing my poor weeping legs. i suffered from pitting edema for the majority of this year, and was healing an ulcer on my shin due to sleeping with my legs so low below my heart in the recliner. it was gross and icky but hey, part of the journey is figuring out how to best take care of yourself while making more of yourself to take care of 😉
*** big thank you to the kind friend that alerted me that i’d fucked up the queue today!!! i wouldn’t have noticed til after it posted at 12:07 PM 😭